i'm the girl....

I'm the girl who tries to be nice to everyone then gets taken advantage of. I'm the girl who tries to look pretty and it's never good enough. I'm the girl who acts like she's happy then goes home and wishes to be gone. I'm the girl who takes harsh words act like they're nothing then goes home and cries. I'm the girl who tries to get her point across and could never find the right words. I'm the girl who has more depth to her then everyone thinks. I'm the girl who hides from the harsh eyes. I'm the girl who wouldn't care if you gave me a shitty gift as long as you thought of me. I'm the girl that prays that someone will finally understand. I'm the girl that gets happy over the little things. I'm the girl that people misinterpret.

never say never

My life has been short but I have already learned quite a bit about love... Not through personal experience, but more through seeing others I know love. Some love and lose, some lose someone they might have loved and luckily some love each other forever. I think about that one or many loves constantly, always hoping I don't miss my chance. My fear of never finding that love has made me create an unattainable goal in my head: find the perfect guy you will find the perfect relationship and you will get the perfect life. That whole scenario is what I've been looking for.

But I have realized that kind of perfectness does not exist in a person. It exists in a connection, a relationship. That is what love is. Love is that person who isn't necessarily perfect, but it perfect for you.

They say real love comes when you aren't searching for it. I used to think that it was absurd to say that because most everyone is searching for love; and many do find it. But of all those people I know, who I've watched love, though it may not have lasted forever, I've realized one thing. They all loved. There isn't a person I know who could end their life saying they haven't loved. The moment I realized that was the moment I stopped searching. I stopped searching for that perfect guy, for that perfect relationship, for that perfect life.

I've never been in love. But I am waiting for it. No longer searching. Waiting, because I know it will come.

it's boring

1st wanna say Assalamualaikum...

ok.today entry nak merapu2 sekali sekala.

almost a month since my last semester end. and it's kind of boring. i mean totally boring. but not that boring. BUT still a big boring to me. ngee... totally missing my friends and college life(hot boys, b-atch, the nerdy and whatsoever). setiap hari always buat benda yang sama. help my mum, do the chores, watch tv etc. that's bored.

the most scary part is......my weight! oh,no! definitely no! FAT? i'm getting FAT. that's so scary ok. everyday motivate diri supaya jangan asyik makan je. but i can't help it. it's mom's cook. you tell me how can you not eat masakan ibu? there is no way. 3 months duduk kampung. can't you imagine how am i gonna look. terrible i guess.haha...but no matter what, i will try my super best to lose some weight and eat little(will i?) insya'allah.

Ada Apa Dengan AF?

"dik, kau ni still stuck dalam dunia AF la..."
"people don't watch that reality show anymore k".

Hmm..tu la yang akak aku cakap kat aku.huhu.. am i? Bukan stuck tapi aku memang suka hiburan. aku suka tengok drama yang terjadi kat AF. AF kan famous dengan kejutan and definitely a lot of DRAMA. Tue yang syok tengok. Ala..aku tengok gitu2 je. Bukan nye obses sangat.hee..tapi kadang2 tu terobses gak.

Moreover, Pak Nil pulak yang jadi host AF kali ni. Orang yang paling synonym dengan Akademi Fantasia. Confirm terlebih2 drama nye. But dia la orangnya yang sebab kan kita semua mengalirkan airmata. Betul tak?
I'm not big fan of him. But OK la.

But, AF ni aku tengok more tue rupa je. Ada rupa tapi zero talent, tak leh jadi gak. Paling tak pun, most of them jadi pelakon. Tak semua yang go on dengan menyanyi as their career. AF kali ni bagi aku yang betul2 boleh nyanyi pun ada like a few je. Pelajar yang aku nampak really have that talent on singing+vocal is miza, afif, nera and asri kot. But MIZA memang best. Even she's not really that pretty, but i like her voice. She can sing english very well.

Ok la cite pasal AF nie...
daaa

Fakers!

OMG!
feel sorry for me? don't be. feel sorry for urself!
but, paling penting aku yang feel sorry kat kau.
just wait and see.

DUDE, or should i call you LOSER!
i am so OVER you! i just feel sorry for you. Kau rasa kau hebat sangat?
there's so many fish in the water k. Bukan kau sorang je.

don't make me HATE you so bad.

move bi-atch!

look.
i can't change the way i think and i can't change the way i am.
but if i offended you? GOOD
cause is still don't give a FUCK!