L.O.V.E

Now World wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

xoxo

today was a fairytale

suddenly i become 'kipas susah mati' lg!arghh!!kenapalah aku fanatic sangat with him??aku pun tak tau.his got something yang other guys tak ada...it's hard for me to explain.y'know,bak kata orang "AURA" yg semmgnya boleh attract people to love him.tiba2 rasa nak sgt jumpa dia...i want to meet him SOOO BAD!Ari tu dah ada depan mata tak pergi jumpa.buat shy-shy cat la pulak...fiqa fiqa...entah bile boleh meet him lagi pun tak tau...another YEARS kot.*sigh*.akn best kalau hidup ini mcm kat dalam cerpen or novel cinta yang selalu berimaginasi...Pfft...
Stop it fiqa.stop dreaming!wake up!wake up!

lol

world behind my wall

It's raining today
The blinds are shut, it's always the same
I tried all the games that they play
But they made me insane

Life on TV
It's random, it means nothing to me
I'm writing down what I cannot see
Wanna wake up in a dream

They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?

The sun will shine like never before
One day I will be ready to go
See the world behind my wall

Trains in the sky
Are traveling through fragments of time
They're taking me to parts of my mind
That no one can find

I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal, I'm ready to feel

They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?

The sun will shine like never before
One day I will be ready to go
See the world behind my wall

See the world behind my wall
See the world behind my wall
See the world behind my wall

I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal, I'm ready to feel

Take me there
Take me there
Take me there

They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?

happy b'day

Hey you
I know I'm in the wrong
Time flies
When you're having fun
You wake up
Another year is gone
You're twenty-two
I know it's kind of lame
But Happy Birthday

Dedicated to My Dearest Friend:
NAJATUL AIDA MOHD TAJUDIN
lots of L.O.V.E
BFF

xoxo

i hate me

I hate the girl that is so in love
I hate the girl that is so in love she blushes the minute he walks into the room
I hate the girl that is so in love she Can’t think of anything but him
I hate the girl that is so in love she becomes speechless
I hate the girl that is so in love that the only movie she can see is The Notebook
I hate the girl that is so in love she feels sick When he is not with her
I hate the girl that is so in love she imagines their entire future together
I hate the girl that is so in love she becomes naive
The reason I hate this girl is because she is me. You might be wondering what the reason for all the hate is. The reason is simple, the girl’s love, my love was and will never be answered

i can't. i can't i can't i can't.
i can't do this anymore. its going to kill me. i just can't. i need to move on.
but
i can't stop loving him. i can't and i need to because its the worst thing ever.
i can't because thinking of everything that happened literally makes me sick to my stomach.
i can't because he's the only one i ever think about.
he's the one i don't want to think about, but i cannot stop.
i can't because i never got to kiss him, i never felt his breath between my lips.
i can't because i spend my days fantasizing about him surprising me,
showing up on my doorstep, telling me he made a mistake.
i can't because i see her everyday.
i see her and i think of what they used to have and i agonize over whether he chose her.
i can't because i don't even know if he chose her.
i don't even know because he is so confusing and frustrating
and he makes everything so unclear.
i can't because he might still have feelings for me.
there is that sliver of a chance and while i know its probably not true,
it makes it impossible to let go.
i can't because i think about being in his arms every second.
the hairs of his beard brushing my cheek gently.
the feeling of his warmth beneath my fingers.
i can't because the way our fingers intertwined was perfect.
it felt warm and soft and right.
i can't because he understood me.
he just got me, right from the start.
and i don't find that often. not often at all.
i can't because we would be perfect together.
i know we would. and it's too hard for me to give up on that.
i can't because EVERYTHING makes me think of him.
crayons. tattoos. band tees. school buses. nose rings.
and every time i see them im completely overwhelmed.
i can't because i practically start crying in the middle of the gym when a song comes on that makes me think of him. which is a lot of songs.
i can't because i've tried and it doesn't work. i want to stop so much.
its just not going to happen.
i can't because i don't see other guys. i don't even see them as being guys.
its like they don't exist to me now.
i can;t because i imagined our insane, amazing, beautiful future and it's all i want.
i thought it was really going to happen and now the pain is eating me up.
i can't because i want him more than i've ever wanted anything in my life.

i can't breathe. i can't focus. i can't be without him. i can't go the rest of my life wondering what it would have been like.

i just can't.

i'm just a BROKEN HEARTED girl